Strange Dream

In my dream just now, I was running towards a bus stop, in front the bus stop there is a big road, the opposite side of the bus stop mean the place that I'm standing got rock slide. Luckily, I managed to jump a little bit to the right so I escaped the big rock to fall on me. However, my brothers were reach the bus stop, there was a hill behind the bus stop, and so all the rocks fall onto the bus stop. I was so afraid that this is 2012, but I think and think again, if this is not 2012, then what is that mean? Should it be I feel that nobody is beside me now? Will I ever get support from anyone?

Crap without Meaning

Yesterday, I had finished 'When Heaven Burn' and I cried. Woah! How sad is the feeling of flashback related to something that you cannot forget. It is our memories. From childhood to adulthood. It means a lot to an individual but not others. I understand what I feel, but do you really understand how I feel? Even though I understand how I feel, sometimes I can't describe it.

Piece by piece, it flash through my mind, I don't know what I want to share. It's hard to understand one's mind. I can't even control my own mind. =/

A Letter to Myself

I don't want to sleep, I feel like going to do something I like. But I wish there is someone who can accompany me to do so. Like going for a hike? If I willing to step out one step, I think I can even do it alone. I just can't do thing alone. Sigh! This is the worst behavior I never throw away until today.

Another thing is, song is used to express feelings. Do you understand the feeling of your friends? Imagination plus a song, can you feel your friend's feel when you mix the two things? I want to talk about this actually, but I don't want to blame anyone for not knowing the deep feeling of another. Nobody is perfect. Even a doctor will never know another person thought. Just stop talking about your feeling towards something you don't like instead of continuing telling others about your "negative" opinion.

Sometimes, I just can't stop thinking about my past. I know past is not a reason for us to run away from reality or from our life. But I am just a normal human, I trying so hard to forget about it. But I not really willing to let go. It's what I left in my memories, my memory for me to remember who am I and what I lost.

Crapping all these and nobody will understand what am I crapping. Haha! This blog is really for me myself only. =/

A place for me to talk about my thought? Anyway, all of these are just things that I telling myself. It means nothing to anyone else but just me.

名与利

阿名哥，为什么你有这么多的粉丝，每天追你追个不停？
我把你追啊追，追得我好累。不想再继续追下去了。
好累。
都该是时候换换我的风格，是时候去追寻人生，好过追你这没用的东西。

阿利哥，你就不好，天天找别人陪你就是偏偏没找上我的门儿来。
好不公平。

我决定！时机到了。。。该追寻人生!

A Good Dream from Santa Claus

Just now I got a dream, I was moving into a big building belongs to TARC. Should it be a hostel? I think so. It is big, got 4 floors! It was totally empty when I first walk in.

Ground floor has few connected rooms, got kitchen got bathroom got bedrooms and so on. I was given a big room, inside got 2 bed, BIG bed! Another one is for JIN WEI. lol! My classrep now. Both of us shift into that hostel together.

I am so happy at last I can move into a place that belongs to me. When I think of I am going to be alone later when they back home, I comfort myself I also got plenty of places can go.

Go back outside, look around the building. From no people, second floor 3rd floor n 4th floor start appearing shadow. =.= SHADOWS!

Look at ground floor, NOTHING! Then, again look up there. GOT human. Owh! Look ground floor again, got human too now. LOL!

Then I wake up from my dream. I wanted to move out from my house so badly? Haha! Maybe.

Idiot's Thought

2am where do i begin?
Crying off my face again...
The sound of loneliness,
Wants to follow me to bed..

Argh! The feeling is too strong until I got to admit you know how i feel recently..
Sick, now can concentrate on my work? Or should I still PLAY = =! SAD! Cant control myself..

Happy to Eat But Sad to Share

Wanna share something small in Twitter but i dunno my twitter acc login id.. so sad.. Smile this song is really good, I can feel the happiness in it but I dont have the happiness within the song.. I am having my dinner alone now in front of my laptop.. I asked something but I got no response from anyone in the house.. So HappY to have my dinner AlonE.. This is THE REASON WHY I-I-I-I Smi-i-i-ile...