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Thursday, June 2, 2011
Down Thoughts
Sometimes I just decided to do something so that I won't feel so lonely, but happiness won't last long and it is gone in a blink of an eye.. Companions made me feel like i'm not alone but some harsh words or unfriendly treatment would definitely bring me down.. I have fallen again.. Down and down and down.. Maybe I don't deserve to have such a full time caring heart, becoz it is definitely a waste if such a good heart is with me.. I should donate it to another person who has more friend or caring friend compare with me.. Well, how to train myself to shut up?! I just can't control myself to talk coz I don't like to be alone.. Everyday stay at home already knew how does it feel like, now at college or other places I hope I can enjoy the life I want rather than just forcing myself to shut up.. What should I do?! Maybe I should just practice how to shut up to see how's the "market" work...
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
ya suffering is optional
thx ms chin for telling me that.. but 1 positive energy cant fight with strong negative energy inside me.. haha! gather more positive energy to purify me... i hope that day would come faster... coz i feel so suffer to live under this condition...
Monday, May 30, 2011
My Assignment - Hundreds Words Task
A thought is appearing in my mind, posting a personal message mean what?! Mean I'm so eager to talk to somebody?! Or am I waiting for a reply?! Recently, I tried to find people to talk with me so that I can feel better, so that I can run away from loneliness.. But after that, I realized that my life is even more boring if I din't find anyone to chat with.. Perhaps talking to my blog is a daily routine now.. As in it is the only thing that allows me to talk... I'm so bored.. Bored till I'm so tired... Money is one of the factor that make me feel so bored with my life.. If I could have more money compare with now, I think I will be able to at least find some fun... Without money, without friends, without any entertainment, without any companions, I feel so tired of living..
Nose sensitive is getting more and more severe.. Every morning attend class and my nose make me feel uncomfortable... Feel like staying at home and rot faster... Luckily I still got 2 friends, artificial friends... LOL! There is one line i love it very much! 明明活得很好,却感觉快死掉.. I really like this.. Because it always tell me that I got such a good fate to survive until this age but my dead brain always feel like dying since it cant sense any companions around.. Sad case.. Suddenly watch back what I write up here, I realized that I should have already done my PA coursework if all of these are related to PA coursework.. So many words up there! Sad! Cry also alone.. Mean I'm a real loner?! Personal message.. A way to express myself to myself.. =) Laugh always, laugh louder, so that I can hear it and enjoy myself.. Haha! Funny =D I should spend my energy on my assignment instead of blogging which is another way to talk to myself..
So I should stop blogging and go sleep now! Night!
Nose sensitive is getting more and more severe.. Every morning attend class and my nose make me feel uncomfortable... Feel like staying at home and rot faster... Luckily I still got 2 friends, artificial friends... LOL! There is one line i love it very much! 明明活得很好,却感觉快死掉.. I really like this.. Because it always tell me that I got such a good fate to survive until this age but my dead brain always feel like dying since it cant sense any companions around.. Sad case.. Suddenly watch back what I write up here, I realized that I should have already done my PA coursework if all of these are related to PA coursework.. So many words up there! Sad! Cry also alone.. Mean I'm a real loner?! Personal message.. A way to express myself to myself.. =) Laugh always, laugh louder, so that I can hear it and enjoy myself.. Haha! Funny =D I should spend my energy on my assignment instead of blogging which is another way to talk to myself..
So I should stop blogging and go sleep now! Night!
Friday, May 27, 2011
Funny Thought
Inhumanity, I hope I can behave in this way...
So that, I can truely free from any burden...
So that, I dont have to look at the floor without looking in front everytime i walk...
So that, I can stop crying and be numb with everything i care about...
So that, I will be always standing without falling or bend my knee...
So that, I can survive when im alone...
When can I acquire this so extraordinary skill?! I really need it... =/
So that, I can truely free from any burden...
So that, I dont have to look at the floor without looking in front everytime i walk...
So that, I can stop crying and be numb with everything i care about...
So that, I will be always standing without falling or bend my knee...
So that, I can survive when im alone...
When can I acquire this so extraordinary skill?! I really need it... =/
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Long Gas Story Teller
Last week, its another history in my life..
I think it should be the fifth history that recorded with dark cloud,thunder n storm in my life..
I need someone to talk to... Talk about everything I wanted to talk and share..
I want to go sing k so desperately! It's because I want to share something that I not dare to voice out by singing it loud..
Last thursday, I have to say bye to 2 person.. The first person I said to is a bye forever which will never meet again.. Its a super duper down time to me.. However, the second one is totally opposite of the first.. Its a super duper happy moment we had and there is still chance for us to meet again in future.. Even though the chance is low, but its better than the chance is a ZERO..
Thx to F.I.R for releasing their latest album at this moment.. I love them coz their songs have accompanied me for these days which I feel so lonely.. Dear, thx ya for allowing me to hide for a week time.. I think it is time for me to see the sun.. So, it's time to stand up.. N open my eyes to see the sunshine..
Another thing that I would like to mention is.. Im not slow, but slowing down the speed allows me to enjoy more time with everything.. I very scared of losing something.. Once something even a dust that checked in to my life.. I hope it wont just checked out without care about my feeling..
Arghhhh! Im so indulge n enjoy in these songs... They are like a good fren hugging me and just won't let me go away! I hug everything and don't wanna let go.. Can I?
I think it should be the fifth history that recorded with dark cloud,thunder n storm in my life..
I need someone to talk to... Talk about everything I wanted to talk and share..
I want to go sing k so desperately! It's because I want to share something that I not dare to voice out by singing it loud..
Last thursday, I have to say bye to 2 person.. The first person I said to is a bye forever which will never meet again.. Its a super duper down time to me.. However, the second one is totally opposite of the first.. Its a super duper happy moment we had and there is still chance for us to meet again in future.. Even though the chance is low, but its better than the chance is a ZERO..
Thx to F.I.R for releasing their latest album at this moment.. I love them coz their songs have accompanied me for these days which I feel so lonely.. Dear, thx ya for allowing me to hide for a week time.. I think it is time for me to see the sun.. So, it's time to stand up.. N open my eyes to see the sunshine..
Another thing that I would like to mention is.. Im not slow, but slowing down the speed allows me to enjoy more time with everything.. I very scared of losing something.. Once something even a dust that checked in to my life.. I hope it wont just checked out without care about my feeling..
Arghhhh! Im so indulge n enjoy in these songs... They are like a good fren hugging me and just won't let me go away! I hug everything and don't wanna let go.. Can I?
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