Wanna travel around the world, Alone or With Friends..

I HOPE I'M A BILLIONAIRE! SO FREAKING BAD!!

I wanna go travel around the world so freaking bad!!!! BUT I need money(which i dont have now), time(too much to be spent now), energy(lots of extra and can't finish thats why i am still here for now) and parents' permission... Haha! China, Hong Kong, Japan, Korea... USA, UK, AUS, NZ and ......

I don't mind to mix with other culture.. Coz I won't mind what level or standard is used to measure the status of human..

4 Mixed( Happy + Angry + Sad + Guilty ) Dream

Finally, I saw my aunt's face 2 hours ago, I wanted to see her in my dream since long long time ago.. The dream began with I received a msg that my aunt was sent to the hospital.. I rushed to the hospital and I saw 1 patient was heavily sick, she was help by the doctor to get onto the bed... I dunno who was the patient coz I duno who she was.. Beside the pity woman, a girl was standing beside her.. Then, I felt nervous and tried to call my aunt.. What I found was, the cellphone rang in front of me... My aunt, was the woman who I can't recognise before this.. I cried in my dream... I felt very happy coz I can finally see her again.. She was old and heavily sick this time.. When I tried to touch her face, I woke up and cried for real... This is the third time I cried after my dream...

Once I woke up, I tried not to sleep anymore because its 10 o'clock now.. Perhaps I was too tired, I slept again.. And now, I dream I go for a visit to my aunt after some time.. I can't found her anymroe.. This time, the girl who stand beside my aunt in the first dream was arguing with a nurse... I duno what the nurse done, but when i heard something like the nurse was done some mistake and my aunt was gone, I can't control myself and wanted to kill the nurse.. But I woke up not long after that coz I was too shocked with myself...

I still remember the first time I met her in my dream was the few weeks after she passed away, I saw her but she couldn't recognise me... This was the first time i cried after my dream... The second time I cried after my dream when I saw her back in my dream for 3 to 5 seconds..

I just can't forgive myself for the stupid mistake I made...

I AM _____, This is the _____

If you ask me... am i SELling my FISH? I will ask you what cost you gonna pay to get the fish?!
When u tell me that u cant pay me a high cost, I will just ask you to go home with your money...

Then, the guy ask me why can't i just sell the fish to him with a cheaper price?!
I reply him:" this is the REAL ITalY fish...."

BE MYSELF

What for I go and care for so many things?
There are actually uncountable things in this world that I have to care but why am I wanted to care part of it??
I should not keep any of it in my mind!!
Life is still going on even though I din't think of it for a second...

I should not care anything outside of me start from now?!
Maybe I should first take care all my own stuff first...
The first thing is, my right hand, I really can't bear it anymore.... HE is now GROWTH and have HIS own life!! I can't stop it from shaking HIMSELF anymore... What can I do!!!
I am tired... I should rest from now on...

Is this REAL??

No matter what I said, it was useless...
No matter what I thought, it was pointless...
At last, Nobody could change anything that happened in the past...

This is True... and This is the Truth...

But there are methods that we can make use to halt the tragedy,
and there are steps that we must take in order to change, to make a better future...

Frens.. Help or Help by..

The day I found myself on the isolated island, was the day I knew a friend so called Lonely...
I felt weird with HIM, but HE made me understood one value...

When HE is here with me, my life is still colourful...
When HE is gone from here, my life is only a black line and white paper and nothing else...

Just like a human standing in front the white background,
and only able to see a long wide road which is empty all the way in front of the human...