Happy to Eat But Sad to Share

Wanna share something small in Twitter but i dunno my twitter acc login id.. so sad.. Smile this song is really good, I can feel the happiness in it but I dont have the happiness within the song.. I am having my dinner alone now in front of my laptop.. I asked something but I got no response from anyone in the house.. So HappY to have my dinner AlonE.. This is THE REASON WHY I-I-I-I Smi-i-i-ile...

A Letter to YOU, The ONE who looking at US

Life is not as easy as everyone can imagine.. Especially when you're having financial problem from your relative.. The one you love, you would share everything with him or her.. Even though that is a super deep hole which you have to step in and you do not know when you can climb back up to the surface.. It is hard to open your mouth to tell something that cannot be solved within a short time.. But that is not the solution.. Everyday, everyone close to you will have to suffer a lot especially your parents..

What can I do to help?!
Nothing.. Everyday hear the story, I can only feel pain deep in my heart.. There is nothing else I can do.. If I can take out that amount of money to help, maybe I can temporary solve the problem.. But, more and more problems will arise and I do not know how to solve the problems that will be coming to me..

Hopeless and Restless days.. Even though my life is good and everyday I live happily, but I feel like dying all the times.. Financial problem, can money drop from the sky?! How good if money drop from the sky?!

When you are hopeless yet you got to hear your friend tell you how he spent his money or how much he can have from parents or relatives, it makes me feel so envy and jealous.. Jealousy, can I use that as a reason for me to do something bad?! I really feel so hopeless to life.. But, who knows my future.. Maybe I can help them in future?! The problem is can the victims survive till the last second?!! I feel so unfair.. I never hope anything from YOU.. But I really hope YOU can help my aunt to pass this.. My cousin can't do anything until the problem behind that is solve.. Pls, I beg YOU.. Help them..

Movie Night with Frens

Kahwai, Wong, Marcus, Leo, CP, PC, Nee, CPM & Poh! Hey! Enjoy the night with u guys! Even though Insidious is kinda ... But I enjoy a movie night with all of us gather together! Can we have another try for this kind of activity be4 PC move?! haha! Love ur house weih PC! Dont go club or Dont go pub! We go for MOVIE NIGHT!

I Need Suprise

Tuesday, suppose there is 1 lecture class at 4pm to 6pm.. I dont feel like going so I attended it ytd.. But, now I regret.. I made my tuesday too free, free until I dunno what to do and spent an hour listening the same song which telling me how I feel.. Am I too active?! My brain just keep telling me find something to do, 1 sec be4 this i on fb.. 1 sec later i off it.. 2 sec later I feel like on my fb again.. so I on fb again.. and cloose it again in less than few minutes time.. What am I doing... Am I bored till like this?! There is a lot of stuff waiting for me to complete them... But my mood isn't here with me.. What can I do to recover my good mood?! Someone pls talk to me.. Tell me some joke tell me some lame joke or tell me some secret to make me feel suprise pls...

FreeDom

Lying on my bed, watching at the closed window..
Sound like im in jail, well there's no difference whether im in jail or in my house..
I want freedom.. Free from any burden, free from any perfect thoughts about my life..
Free from anything that I care so much.. My heart is so soft...
In movies, ppl can just walk away and explore their life.. But I cant coz my heart is already linked with everyone who step into my life...
I miss everything I care.. When can I feel free and run away from here?
This song sings my mood now..

林宥嘉 – 想自由


每個人都缺乏什麼　我們才會瞬間就不快樂　
單純很難　包袱很多　已經很勇敢　還是難過　

許多事情都有選擇　只是往往事後我才懂得　
情緒很煩　說話很衝　人和人的溝通　有時候沒有用　

或許只有你　懂得我　所以你沒逃脫　
一邊在淚流一邊緊抱我　小聲的說多麼愛我　
只有你　懂得我　就像被困住的野獸　在摩天大樓渴求自由　

一路守著追著美夢　踏上屋頂意外跌得好重　
不覺得痛　是覺得空　城市的幻影有千百種　

就算愛也會變冷淡　可是現在抱的你是暖的　
我不曉得　我不捨得　為將來的難測　就放棄這一刻　

或許只有你　懂得我　所以你沒逃脫　
一邊在淚流一邊緊抱我　小聲的說多麼愛我　
只有你　懂得我　就像被困住的野獸　在摩天大樓渴求自由

Wake up N Dream

I think I wake up too early today.. Nothing to do now!
Looking at my lappy, I only can dream..
My mind only got 5 words..
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
I got nothing to do
Sad...

Shouting

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Down Thoughts

Sometimes I just decided to do something so that I won't feel so lonely, but happiness won't last long and it is gone in a blink of an eye.. Companions made me feel like i'm not alone but some harsh words or unfriendly treatment would definitely bring me down.. I have fallen again.. Down and down and down.. Maybe I don't deserve to have such a full time caring heart, becoz it is definitely a waste if such a good heart is with me.. I should donate it to another person who has more friend or caring friend compare with me.. Well, how to train myself to shut up?! I just can't control myself to talk coz I don't like to be alone.. Everyday stay at home already knew how does it feel like, now at college or other places I hope I can enjoy the life I want rather than just forcing myself to shut up.. What should I do?! Maybe I should just practice how to shut up to see how's the "market" work...